January 24th, 2010, the time has finally come. It’s my last night in Ontario. Tomorrow I will be leaving on a jet plane with my life packed into one backpack and a guitar over my shoulder. I am heading to Vancouver first where I will stay for 2 weeks with Emily. The dream that we planted almost a year ago has now come to fruition and we are heading to Hawaii together February 7th for what I’m sure will be an epic adventure. After a 3 week journey around the island with Em I will be heading to Hawi where starting March 1st I will be living and working at an organic farm and Qigong meditation center.
I sit here in the basement of my parents house, snuggled up in my blankets writing to my journal. Where for the record is also where my higher self tends to reside. She never fails to be available when I come knocking at her door with my pen in hand. I tell her everything, we have no secrets, my journal is a safe place where fear and judgment cannot access. For this I am thankful.
As I sit here I feel fear trying to scramble in under my skin, reminding me that I have only $300 to my name and a one way ticket to Hawaii. I hear him say, “ You are loco, no?”, “How the heck are you going to survive and get home?”, But as I said earlier my journal is a safe place and Faith and trust quickly interject and remind me that the universe is abundant and she will always provide for me. As long as you live in the flow that is life anything you could ever need will be gifted to you, TRUST in her... I do.
They remind me that this trip is to strengthen my faith in the universe and it’s awesome power to provide for all. In order for this to work I must put my philosophy to the test, and what better way then taking off to one of the most remote islands on the planet with no money and no return ticket home. All will be as it is meant to be and I trust I will be provided for. The funny thing about life is that we all put some much energy into having money. But what is money really? All money is created from debt, which means having money leaves us swimming in a pool of debt. Once we begin to focus our energy on the ability of the universe to provide for us in ways other then gifting us with money we will truly see the awesome power that she yields and is willing to share with us. All she asks in return is that we love and trust in her in our times of need.
My higher self reassures me that on this journey I will find my truth and the grounding I need to be 100% me all the time . I am so hard on myself especially when it comes to my gifts and talents. I am constantly hearing music in my head and writing songs. I love to sing but Self-judgment always seems to get in the way whenever I think about performing for others. So one of my intentions I have set for myself on this last night in Ontario is to find my inner song and sing it for all to hear. May I create beautiful and uplifting music for all of humanity.
My higher self is constantly sending love from on high to support me, she believes in me and tells me, “Just sing!” NO focus is needed on who will like my music or on how it will provide a living for me. Just singing form my heart is all I need to do. I am a channel for the universe. Through me music will flow and whoever decides to tune into the station that I am operating from will be gifted the truth that flows through me. If it’s no-one that is okay. I am not looking to be popular I just love to create and sing.
I have long been interested in Sound therapy, especially the field of healing with our voice. I believe the human voice is one of the most powerful healing instruments on the planet. We so often create instruments and machines that aid us in healing outside ourselves but I truly believe that the only instrument we need to heal ourselves and our planet is our own voice. Each persons voice is most powerful for them. We have been gifted this awesome power and I choose to dive further into this unknown abyss and shine light onto it for all to see.
What other intentions have I set for this beautiful journey that is now at my feet…
*Live in harmony with our mother. Living off the grid and with the land has long been a dream of mine. The way I see it the planet is just an extension of our selves. We must treat her like an equal and be conscious of the effect our everyday actions have on her. I am reminded here of the quote, "Do unto others as you would have them do unto you." the planet is alive and she too is one of us, may we all begin to apply this statement to her as well.
*Finding someone who is walking the same path as me to share the awesomeness that is life with. I feel his presence and believe we are already walking hand in hand. It is just a matter of time before his face is revealed to me. I believe in a love that lasts and I believe it starts with allowing yourself to remain independent. Both growing together but separately as one. I read a great quote in a book when I first arrived here in Hawaii, the three secrets to life:1) having somewhere to go 2) having something to look forward to and 3) someone to share it with. I am now in a place where I am open to love and it’s healing powers. Bring it on universe I’ve spent 7 years healing myself to get me to where I am and I am no longer afraid. The Beatles said it best when they sang, "Love is all you need."
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